Short Life in the cafe

So I'm back in the cafe and thinking this could possibly become a habit!

One mega mocha and a lil food on the side..  (a chicken and apricot croissant if you wanted to know), it's making me broke buying food from here. I'm a student living off thee parents and yet i seem to buy expensive food, which I definately DO NOT need..
BUT IT'S SO GOOD THAT IT'S WAY TOO HARD TO RESIST!!
I could be a hardworking student and actually study during my 2 hour break.. but who really does these days?...

 I should re phrase that, what procrastinator would study in their 2 hour break?!.. THATS better, sums me up pretty well. It's a bit sad really, there's quite a lot of people kind of expecting me to be successful or whatever.. just because I'm the first person in the family to go to university doesn't mean i actually need to pass...
WTF am i saying.
I AM GOING TO PASS! this year for sure. Not too sure if I'll pass well enough to get into first year pro. I have a back up plan so I'm all good if I don't get in.. maybe I shouldn't of made that back up plan so I could be like those people whose lives depended on it!

But I can never be that way. I think that no matter what, everything will eventually work its way around and whatever happens, just happens. Anyway people say that our generation will have many major career changes before they actually stick to just one, so I'm just starting early. NOT REALLY, I'm just trying to make excuses for myself. NOT GOOD!!!

To all those people who have your lives planned out, HOW THE FUCK DO YOU DO IT?
I can't get my head around it.. It would be awesome if I could just steal a little bit of that organisation. Can barely plan for next week, let alone my whole life! People who ask what I want to do after I get my degree will always get the same answer.. "I dunno".
I'm not saying that I would like to plan my whole life out though. I mean what happens when something doesn't go out the way you planned?  I'm just happy being here and alive.

I've come into this cafe two days in a row, sat in the same place and done the same thing. It's definately a first. Can't do it 3 days in a row though because my 2 hour gap on wednesday has been taken up by a 3 hour physics lab! I have to work around my timetable tommorrow and sit in different lectures. Should be fun!
SO just came to the conclusion that I'm gonna try avoid this place for a while so I don't become a regular (actually, just to save money) and find somewhere else to sit for 2 hours while I wait for my next class to start... maybe the library?

HAHA nahhh... i'm not too fond of the library it's too big and busy for my liking.

Thats me for now.
goodbye and happy reading

Jezzah
xoxo