Not An Obsession

I am studying.

Really I am.

Stop staring at my screen trying to figure out what I'm doing. GAWD!
I hate people who walk past and stare over my shoulder to see if there's anything interesting on my screen.

Well anyway, beleive it or not... I'm back in the library!
Still deciding whether it was a good decision to come in here or just plain stupid. I was studying for a while but needed a break, and because I'm lazy and can't be assed moving, I decided to go on facebook..

Yup facebook,
pretty boring when you've been on it 3 Days in a row.

But then I remembered that I have a blog! My very own blog where I can write anything and (pretty much) everything I want. Last night I was tempted to come back on here and write a new post, but I didn't have anything to write about. I still don't really, I'm just rambling on about nothing. It's fun though, isn't it? Just to let your fingers do the typing and see what nonsense they come up with.
I think this could possibly be my new obsession. Obsessions don't last very long with me, I'll usually find something I like and then overuse it until I'm absolutely sick of it..

HOPEFULLY this isn't just an obsession and I actually keep writing on this. I mean it actually gives me something to do other than watch t.v, drink, study, daydream and other stuff while I'm crippled and not able to exercise.

Think I might drink tonight, not too sure though, it depends on whether my flatemates are keen or not. Would definately like to go hit the town tonight but my crippled-ness would mean I'd stand out like a sore thumb with my crutches and all, which is definately not what I like. I like to be 'normal' and not stand out of the crowd, but at the same time, I'm never going to be normal. Which is awesome! I don't even know if I'm allowed in the clubs with crutches, cause they can definately be used as weapons, or a great way to clear the dancefloor!.

I love dancing, it's amazing! I can't dance though, I just look like an idiot who thinks they can dance. But who really cares?! I sure don't, all those people who stand in a circle 'looking cool' and not dancing are a waste of space, if you aint dancing, GET OFF THE DANCE FLOOR!
Favourite dance move has to be a tie between 'the sprinkler' and this other move which I can't really explain, cause I suck at explaining things. If I had a picture I would post it up buuuuut I don't. You'll always see me crank them out every time I go dancing. It's tradition really.

Stuff It! I have alcohol in the cupboard.
Definately drinking tonight but probably not going out
PARTY AT MINE.

Jezzah
(Lonad drunk)
xoxo


~~P.S~~
I went to a different cafe today and spent money I didn't need to spend... again. The mocha wasn't even that good, teaches me for thinking I'm rich and can afford it! I do think I'm getting addicted to them, Mocha's are SOOO good.

3 hours in the library

So here I am... Sitting in the library, on the 8th floor, where there's an awesome view! Pretty nice day today and I decide to sit inside, how stuffed up is that???

But HEY! I did it! It's not too bad once you find a seat and have headphones which actually work. You can easily block everything out that's happening around you. Not that there's a lot happening, I mean it's a library!

Wouldn't it be cool if you had powers and could make people trip up just for your entertainment??? That would be soo funny to see right now. It's always funny seeing people trip over, even if they hurt themselves. I mean it's not funny after you realise they've actually fucked themselves over, but at the time it's extremely hard to keep it in. I know, it sounds cruel and hopefully I'm not the only one who thinks like that...
But it's true! I laugh at myself ass planting ALL the time, and then realise afterwards that I have a massive dirt mark on my ass. It's even funnier falling off a treadmill, but that's another situation.

Anyway, that was completely off the topic that I wanted to talk about.

What I wanted to talk about is that I've just (last night) realised that I have a thing for drawing hearts. When I'm bored or have nothing to do I like to crank out my (half assed) creative side and do some drawing. There's shit loads of hearts amongst these doodles and if I put them all up, this post would never, ever end.

My Tattoo

 These are my 3 favourite ones, with one of them being my tattoo! LOVE IT. Theres fully a trend in what I draw and once I start something I like, I usually spend a while on it until I think that if I add anything else to it, It would get ruined.

I haven't been to the cafe in 2 whole days now!! lol. Quite tempted to go get me a mocha, aint eaten all day and really really can't be bothered going to class. Should eat summin but that requires moving and either going all the way home to an empty cupboard/fridge or using the little money that I have! I'm supposed to be in class right now, well a tutorial that is. But I couldn't be bothered moving and I "forgot" what the time was. Been sitting in the library for a while now, and less people are here then before. The library for me isn't a good place to study lol. All I do is everything BUT study. I'm a bit confused on how that works, because it's like the best place to study without getting interupted.

Well, thas me today.

CIAO
Jezzah
xoxo

Short Life in the cafe

So I'm back in the cafe and thinking this could possibly become a habit!

One mega mocha and a lil food on the side..  (a chicken and apricot croissant if you wanted to know), it's making me broke buying food from here. I'm a student living off thee parents and yet i seem to buy expensive food, which I definately DO NOT need..
BUT IT'S SO GOOD THAT IT'S WAY TOO HARD TO RESIST!!
I could be a hardworking student and actually study during my 2 hour break.. but who really does these days?...

 I should re phrase that, what procrastinator would study in their 2 hour break?!.. THATS better, sums me up pretty well. It's a bit sad really, there's quite a lot of people kind of expecting me to be successful or whatever.. just because I'm the first person in the family to go to university doesn't mean i actually need to pass...
WTF am i saying.
I AM GOING TO PASS! this year for sure. Not too sure if I'll pass well enough to get into first year pro. I have a back up plan so I'm all good if I don't get in.. maybe I shouldn't of made that back up plan so I could be like those people whose lives depended on it!

But I can never be that way. I think that no matter what, everything will eventually work its way around and whatever happens, just happens. Anyway people say that our generation will have many major career changes before they actually stick to just one, so I'm just starting early. NOT REALLY, I'm just trying to make excuses for myself. NOT GOOD!!!

To all those people who have your lives planned out, HOW THE FUCK DO YOU DO IT?
I can't get my head around it.. It would be awesome if I could just steal a little bit of that organisation. Can barely plan for next week, let alone my whole life! People who ask what I want to do after I get my degree will always get the same answer.. "I dunno".
I'm not saying that I would like to plan my whole life out though. I mean what happens when something doesn't go out the way you planned?  I'm just happy being here and alive.

I've come into this cafe two days in a row, sat in the same place and done the same thing. It's definately a first. Can't do it 3 days in a row though because my 2 hour gap on wednesday has been taken up by a 3 hour physics lab! I have to work around my timetable tommorrow and sit in different lectures. Should be fun!
SO just came to the conclusion that I'm gonna try avoid this place for a while so I don't become a regular (actually, just to save money) and find somewhere else to sit for 2 hours while I wait for my next class to start... maybe the library?

HAHA nahhh... i'm not too fond of the library it's too big and busy for my liking.

Thats me for now.
goodbye and happy reading

Jezzah
xoxo

GOOD MORNING!

Good morning to you all!

how is everything going?! I'm good. TIRED, and ready to fall asleep. Into the sencond semester of uni and this is only my second post!!!! how slack am I?!?!
atm, I'm sitting in the uni cafe while brooke fraser is being played. It's so relaxing lol could definately do for a little nap right here, right now...
All the people who would stare at me weirdly can get stuffed. just cos I'm awesome and actually have thee balls to sleep in public... NOT! lol, i would never do that. That's what the lectures are for.. catch up on sleep time.

So I had a 2 hour gap and was getting bored of facebook and decided to look like i was doing work and make another post. EVERYTHING is going great.. apart from the fact that I'm absolutely fuuucccckkked. wish i could just sleep all day!.. my insomniac days pretty much ceased after posting my first blog. I was out and coulda slept a whole week if I was actually that lazy.

MY Leg 2 weeks after Op

A LOT has happened since my last post. 

BUUUUTTT mostly nothing.. I had surgery on my archillies.. gonna have a pretty awesome scar hopefully, had my first semester exams in hospital (coz it got infected!!!!!!) and just passed my papers.. I dunno if I wanna be an engineer anymore.. I do want to be one, but my enthusiasm has decreased just a lil bit.. STILL liking physics and maths though it's keeping me hanging in there for a while.

GEEKY MUCH?!? lol, oh well.
I'm retardedly awesome anyway so who really cares?

Yesterday was pretty epic.. went to the museum, got to look after my nephew and then went to the beach and got high. (typical uni student), it was an awesome way to finish the week! havent done anything like that in a while now.. Spent so much money on food.. not even funny! could definately not eat today and still be fine.

I did have somethingelse to write about, but it's COMPLETELY GONE!.. can't remember what I actually wanted to write.. GAY!!!, Man it was pretty interesting too..

must not have been important enough if i forgot it.. lol, Will get back to this if I remember or figure out something else to blab on about! haha.. OH LOVE THIS SONG!!! Natasha Beddingfield I think... lol, oh well. haha

Thats me for now.
Like my pic?
PEACE BRO
Jezzah
xoxo