FML

LIKE, WHAT THE FUCK!

I had prettttttyyyyyy much this year planned.

Get back to Christchurch.
Find a job.
Hang with friends. (FINALLY!!)
Live a life.
Save lotsa money.
Go to Aussie with Palmer. (FUCKING AE!!)

BUT NOOOOO!!!!!! Fate / Destiny, whatever you want to call it had other plans. When the world was supposedly ending I TORE MY OTHER FUCKING ARCILLES! WHO THE FUCK DOES THAT? A year and one day after I had surgery on my left arcilles (A year and one day sice my nephew was born!!!!!!!) I TEAR MY RIGHT ARCILLES...

MY OTHER FUCKING ARCILLES!

I was supposed to be flying back to Christchurch TOMORROW.

TOMORROW!

and again....

WHO THE HELL TEARS BOTH OF THEIR ARCILLES?!?

So I'm going to post random rants on here so no one will read them. but just in the off chance they do.. well good on them. anyway.

I worry about you, a lot. You put on such a show that you're happy go lucky, but then I read what you have to say and it's always depressing? I don't know how to approach it, I don't know how to do a lot about anyones feelings really. Not even my own. I mean, I'm writing on a blog about it. I want to help but I'm scared that I might just be over reacting. You have your own family and friends, but I will always be here for you. Always.

I give up. I'm never helping you ever again. If you read this I hope you know I'm talking to you. I've tried.. Not going to try anymore, looks like I've finally caught up with the rest of our group. Do you even appreciate me getting you somewhere to live? Yeah, you were looking. But it was either, too much rent, or there was something wrong with it. Always making excuses. Always. So you want a fancy job that pays well.. You have to work fucking hard to get it. I'm not saying you won't, because I know you can. I guess that's why I'm so fucking tired.

show me you can help yourself and then I'll apologise.
prove me wrong.
I DARE YOU

MY NEW SHOES!!!

Am totally in love with them. Thinks it's a pretty good buy for my first pair of heels EVER!!!

MEAN MEAN

That's all I have to say

Just because I can

That's it! I wanted to post something but can't be fucked writing about the Christchurch earthquake or anything.

R.I.P to all those lovelies that passed away due to the earthquake. My thoughts go out to your family and friends.

Yes, I was in Christchurch when the earthquake hit.

No, the media hasn't hyped it up.

Yes, I fled. BUT I want to move back.

No, I don't beleive in that prediction. HOPEFULLY THEY ARE WRONG

To All the people who are strandard in Chch.. KIA KAHA! Stay strong and we are all thinking of you..

Glad to be alive. Fucking lucky I must Say.... Didn't even lose power at my flat. DEFINATELY LUCKY

Lucky, Grateful and happy!
Jezzah.
xoxo

Mision one accomplished

I HAVE A JOB! Don’t start until the 10th of March but YAYAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

So even though I felt completely out of place, that interview at Subway went EXTREMELY well. I will officially be a sandwich artist!! It isn’t a flash job but it’ll so fucking do. MY BOSS IS ASIAN! :D... I’m guessing the interview clothes helped out a lot. So thank you WINZ! (They gave me them for free) AGAIN, GOTTA LOVE FREE SHIT. Good old Bluffian is quite jealous that I found a job before her. I se

cretly hoped that I would find a job before her so I’d probably be just as jealous if she found one first. It just shows if you consistently try hard enough you’ll get what you want eventually. I’m still going to look for other jobs just in case something even better than a sandwich artist comes along.

So with my other goals, they are slowly being dealt to... SLOWLY. Libby and I went out Friday night and this guy asked me if I could teach his friend how to dance. I think it’s kind of dumb if a friend has to ask for someone else. So I said no. I would rather dance with the person who asked because obviously they had more balls to approach me... But I can’t talk because I have no balls at all. I mean I still haven’t talked to any randoms yet. I really wanted to talk to this person who was sitting by themselves at K.F.C but I chickened out and walked straight past them. It’ll happen one day. I’m gonna stick to this even if it makes me seem creepy.

I was thinking of seeing how many different nationalities I could be. I mean, while I was out, this chick thought I was Tongan... I’m Maori by the way and then when I was working in Methven, someone thought I was Fijian and theeeen a taxi driver thought I was Samoan. He was Samoan as well! So far that’s 4, I’m on a roll!

Anyways, I sold my text books and have already spent most of that money. I lost my eftpos card so made me a bank account in Christchurch. We’re gonna have internet at home soon, so I won’t need to come to the uni once that kicks in. YAYY Things seem to be going so fast already. Before I realise, it’s going to be my birthday and I’ll be half way to 40. ANYWHO

Peace out
Jezzah
xoxo

The PHOTO of the CUTE kid came from here, check it out! They're awesome

Why hello there! What a nice surprise.

So I was watching my video log and I sooo don’t sound like that when I normally talk. Its funny how people change because of the environment they’re in at that point in time. One of my mates pointed out that I sounded more soft spoken, ‘polite’ was the word she used. I think. I guess I do care who actually reads this and what they think about it. I mean I pester my mates until they read my blog, which is kind of stupid; they’ll read it if they want. So from now on, I’m just going to write about stuff that’s happening in my life... As usual but not say that I’ve put up a new post or anything. See who will actually read these posts. I don’t care if no one reads them really; it’ll be like my personal diary, out there in the open for anyone who has nothing else better to do but criticise the way I write. I kind of just want something that will be out there forever so I can look back and reminisce when I’m old and wrinkly. That’s if technology hasn’t killed us by then.


I had all these things to write about and now I’ve forgotten...

WAIT nope, I remember now.

In my video log, I hoped that this year would be much ‘epicer’ than last year’s awesomeness. So I’m going to make a few goals for myself to put myself out there and get to know more people. I probably won’t accomplish them at all but I’ll try... AND THEN blog about how I completely failed. Just to be cool. Anyways,

GOAL 1:

Never talk to strangers... Talk to at least one, maybe two random people a week (SOBER).

Like an actual conversation other then asking what bus to catch or where the toilet is. More like “Heey, how are you? My names Jezzah... mind if I take a seat?” People who don’t count as randoms are those I will actually have to talk to, like a potential boss or an interviewer or that person you have to ring to book an appointment. On top of that, I’m going to try make conversation with those cool checkout people who seem way too happy to be working. Why? I’ve always wanted to randomly introduce myself to people and just be friendly, but I’ve never had an actual reason to do it and I have no balls when it comes to meeting new people. So posting this is like there’ll be some kind of consequence if I don’t actually make an effort to talk to someone. Plus I feel it somehow gives me a reason to go out and make a complete dick of myself.

GOAL 2:

Be aware of my surroundings

So I love going out and dancing and being in my own little world where I don’t give a fuck about how badly I dance but I shut everyone else out and have missed many chances of actually dancing with quite nice looking guys. So, from now on... When I’m out I’ll be on the lookout for those guys who just wanna dance and have a good time. (Not THAAAT kind of good time either). I wanna see how many drinks I can get as well.

So those aren’t my only goals but I can’t really be bothered writing anymore and yeah, I really would like to walk up to a random group of people and ask if I could teach them a dance and put it up on here, but that will come with time. One small baby step in front of the other! I will do it this year.

So YEAHP!

I have an interview at subway today! Let’s hope I get the job.

Wish me Luck :D
Jezzah
xoxo

Vlog... if that's what it's called.

So anyway. Last night I was extremely bored and decided to make like a half assed video log thingy.

I've never really watched anyone elses so I don't really know what you're supposed to do in it.. I'm practically just rambling on about stuff and yeah, it's pretty much me in my own little world because it was like 2 in the morning... So anyway!! Hopefully it uploads.. if not, then you'll just have to beleive that I had a video log thing but I couldn't put it up.

It uploaded!! woop woop ahaha

I'm baaacccckkkkk!!!

Hey hey hey!!!!


Welcome back to this lovely world which belongs to me, Jezzah. That’s right. I’m back into this, again. So here’s what’s happening at the mo, I’m lying on the lounge floor in my new flat, all by myself listening to Jessie J. How exciting! She truly is amazing.

Anyway.. I have a squatter who goes by the name of Bluff, she isn’t actually here at the moment, but possibly will be soon.

I moved in on Saturday with nothing but my clothes, laptop, i pod, photos and other little things that do matter to me, but I can’t be bothered listing them all. I now have a desk, 2 couches, 2 arm chairs, and a TV all for free!!!! AND NO, I didn’t steal any of it. Well actually, that could be debatable because I did get some help to pick up this couch from off the street and we didn’t exactly know whether it was there for the taking or not. I feel like a charity case atm and it’s all thanks to my Aunty and Sammy who kindly donated their unwanted things to me. SHOT GUYS!

Speaking of free things, I’ve only needed to pay for one of the 4 phones that I’ve had (I think that takes true skill). I’m using internet from the public library, which is free. HOW COOL IS THAT! Oh and thanks to my sister, I now have more clothing.

Any who, back to the subject, I am back to annoy anyone who reads this for another year! That’s if the things that decide whether we live or die think I’m still worthy enough to keep living. Last year, AND at the start of this year I was a bit slack at keeping up to date, but I’m going to try harder to keep at this! One of the reasons why I didn’t post that often was because I had these ideas but never knew what, or how to put it down. So this year, Ima just wing it and write shit down, even if it doesn’t make sense... Which is prreeettttyyy much what I’m already doing aint it?? With a couple random photos/ pictures here  and there, I think I’ll be sorted. So really, I’m just gonna do what I’m doing now, just more often.

I want to do like this blog style scavenger hunt where we make a list of things to do/find and then prove that it had been done through blogging and photos/videos and stuff. You get my drift?? BUT I have no one to do it with, so if you’re keen comment me!! If no one comments then I think I’ll just give up on that thought, or make different accounts and pretend to be a bunch of different people. Nah, that’s just desperate and I’m too lazy to keep up more than one blog.

So I am not a uni student anymore, I’m looking for a job! That’s my mission this month. I need a job!!! I can’t stand not having something to do all day. Let the hunting begin!!!!!

The procrastinating uni drop out, Jezzah.

 

Good old Facebook stalking

So, I was on facebook being nosey and stalking my friends. A good friend of mine had put a video up of Jessie J's "Big white room", it was her crazy facials that made me watch her videos... but man!! All I can say is WOW! Can't wait for her songs to actually hit New Zealand. I am fully buying her album if it ever comes out here.

This is one of my favourite songs from her so far.

Jessie J - Rainbow

Watch her! She's awesome.